Today was a very simple day at home. So much has happened in the week for me and Taelor, that a day sitting to just chat seemed like the most natural thing to do. I had just passed my exams and was as wired as I was exhausted.
But never too tired for my hugs.
Sometimes, Taelor and I have little talks about God that cause lots of questions to be asked. Despite not having no where near all the answers, I always put in all my effort to help answer the things that I do know.
Today was no exception. As we talked, I carried him and strolled into our garden.
There is always a worry in my heart whenever I share my faith. It’s something so personal and something that has literally changed my life, that I’m desperate for all my friends and family to experience it for themselves.
I suppose it’s like anything good that you have experienced. Be it a desert at your favorite restaurant that you insist your friends must try, for it is ‘to-die-for’. Or a life changing book or movie that you evangelize to everyone as a ‘must read’ or ‘must watch’. The same feeling, I suppose. Maybe heightened.
Anyway, today was just me and him, at home…Swinging in our garden, talking, sharing…and learning from each other. I know I learned a lot. I hope he did too.
Night time crept in, so I carried him off to the bathroom to get washed up.
Tucking him to bed always makes me so happy.
I got to stare at him and really feel the place in my heart that he occupies, as I brushed the hair away from his forehead to kiss it. Love this boy!
How could God have caused me to find my child in a far away virtual space, defying explanation for most people. Then I ponder a bit. Maybe it’s just like how God adopted me into His family and doesn’t ever treat me like I’m adopted. That’s how I have adopted Taelor into mine. It will be a challenge to explain to my future RL husband and children, but there will be nothing that can separate him from me. Not even if a time comes where he turns his back on me, nor if SL should cease to exist. As long as I have breathe, I intend to always care, love and fight for him as I STAND firmly in the gap for him – like a mother should! Always and forever. Thank you for him, Lord. ❤
If you’re reading this, maybe you don’t know what it’s like to be loved unconditionally, and to have a Father that cares deeply about every single thing about you. I dunno. Maybe you have so much doubt in everything – in people, in life, in God. Maybe you’ve experienced the bad side of “religion” and think that that’s all there is to God – legalism and politics within churches.
I really want you to know something. Life is a lot simpler than it appears. Especially in today’s climate where it is pretty much convoluted with quarrels and divide. In the midst of all of your life’s struggles, you should know that you have a friend that sticks closer than a brother. His name is Jesus. Let the meaning of that sink into your heart for a few minutes.
There are promises God gives to those who know Him as their Father. And love Him. Despite what He can do for you to change your heart and life, there is the simple fact that long before the day you were born, He has loved you and has been waiting for you to acknowledge Him and love Him back. Do you know what it’s like to love someone that doesn’t even acknowledge you exist? Let alone someone you took the time to carefully create, and linger with for all the days of their life? It’s heart breaking, and does make us very ungrateful if you think of it.
God changed my life many times over, and if you’d like, maybe I’ll tell that story. An overview is this…I was once very lost. I mean in depression. I was riddled with sickness. My heart was cold and hardened. I had no joy, and was full of anger and fear. My anxiety levels were probably higher than yours, and I thought I knew it all. I depended on my intellect, and wise as I was, I still managed to ruin a lot of my life by giving my heart and body away. I was hurting and deaf to God through out. That all changed the day I decided to ask Jesus into my heart. He answered me.
Are there hurts you have that you could do without? Do you know Jesus heals all wounds and is truly alive and real? In fact, do you know that fixing you and making you like Him – free – is what He practically died for? He knows what it’s like to have the issues we face…insecurities, heart ache, addictions, sickness…He knows and has seen all of it. He wants you back, you know? And He’s waiting for you to do something about it.
The bible says in Jeremiah 29:13 – “You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” In fact, it also says so in Deuteronomy 4:29 – “But if from there you seek the Lord your God, you will find him if you seek him with all your heart and with all your soul.”
Basically, if you seek God with your heart you will find Him. There’s no “maybe”s about it. But notice it says “heart” not “mouth” or “mind”. God sees hearts and if you want Him to show up and change things, you’ll have to be willing to engage authentically at a heart level and ask Him in a way that invites Him into your heart.
Maybe this video will be something you’ll enjoy. I don’t know. But I sure hope so. I sure hope so.
Thanks for listening. I really love you, you know? ❤